Last few days have been very emotional for me 😞, everything that happened last year was running like a film infront of my eyes, reflecting and fighting with my nafas 😣. How should I react or my reaction should be on the day when part of me my little angel departed from the world 😢. Should I relive every moment of that morning with sadness and panic as it was on that day : my heart was saying something is not right although in last 7 months Nafeesah fought her illness and responded back but this time my heart knew she won't but I didn't wanted to believe it and kept hoping she will fight back 😢. In my hope that she will fight back I didnt realise my angel was taking her last breaths in my arms 😢. Those moments will live with me till my last breadth. I have read we (every single one of us) make our own memories according to our prospect of the situation. So today I choose to look at the memory from the prospect of my little nafeesah, she received a invitation from the lord of the universe. And she was ready, every thing was planned for her, angles were waiting for malakaqul to take her soul out gently so that they can rap her up in silk cloths and take her straight to her lord. What a beautiful day for her, Alhumdulilah that on that day Allah gave me courage to give her ghusal and get her ready and kiss her forhead to say good bye to her until we meet again. I still wonder and marvel that In less then 8 hours she was in her grave from the time she passed away. How eager was lord of the universe to receive her. When Allah wants something there is no hinder in it. I am so proud of my little angel who did her part so bravely, lovingly and reached her goal of touching so many peoples heart and bringing them close to Allah swt. I want to remember this day when my little precious went to gardens of heaven! I can imagine her crawling among beautiful garden in the supervision of prophet Ibraheem, smiling and giggling. My yearning and longing to hold her again increases day by day, it's a beautiful emotion that increases love ❤️, in anticipation to see her and hold her again I will try to be as patient as I can be. so that she can be proud of me
This candle was first lit on the 31st of October 2017 and will burn for 93 years 6 months and 7 days.